life of a recluse. // thoughts

life of a recluse. // thoughts

I’ve been told that I’m outgoing, easy to talk to, and seem very sociable. These are all true but also false. I use all of my mental energy when I first meet a person-I am totally present and I am the best version of me. Unfortunately, this is me around 10% of the time. In reality, I’m a recluse. I like staying at home and I can go without seeing anyone for an oddly long amount of time. Of course I get lonely (who doesn’t?) and that’s usually when I dip my toes into the social world and confide in the few but understanding friends that I have. The only person I see daily is my boyfriend, who I live with. And even he knows that I need personal space quite a bit.

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I see people go out with their friends multiple times a week and to that I think: how exhausting? I don’t know about you but my mental juices run out and I feel drained after being around people (even those I love) for too long. I’ve always worried about it and so have my parents. Even in high school, I would rarely go to sleepovers or the movies with the rest of the girls. I preferred to be at home, with my books. Or with a pen and paper. I think I’m getting better. Not that being a socially inactive person is a disease or anything. I just think I’m opening myself up a little bit more. I say yes to more things and try to rub off that mentally drained feeling I’m so accustomed to. Maybe it’s an excuse for laziness? Not sure.

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But if I’m perfectly happy and content with how I am, why do I always get the feeling that I need to be more out there? Whenever I see people I know experiencing all these new things with all these other humans, I can’t help but feel like I should be doing the same. Sometimes I exert too much energy around people-I try too hard to please them and be the best friend they can have during that time, and then I’m left with wanting a good nap and some solitude. Maybe I should learn to chill. Not be so tense around even the closest friends I have, not be so careful with what I say so I don’t offend anyone since I’m afraid of judgement. Now I’m starting to think about my confidence. Yikes.

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Meh. I’m turning 26 this weekend and will be spending it solely with my boyfriend and myself. I’ll officially be in my late-20’s I suppose. Woop!

If you read all of this, damn, good for you. x

 

paige

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august ’17 // Ipsy Glam Bag

august ’17 // Ipsy Glam Bag

I know I just posted my July Ipsy bag review but it was because I received it super late and it was my first glam bag ever. I just received the August edition for this year and I’m excited to show you guys the goodies this month.

Vitamin C Derma E  Concentrated Serum w/ Hyaluronic AcidIMG_3491_Fotor.jpg

Interesting product-I’m very happy I got this because I’ve seen this brand at Ultra but never tried any of their products. This one in particular claims to help with fine lines and wrinkles. It also boosts the skin and leaves it feeling supple and plump. I’ve also heard it evens out the texture and tone of your skin throughout time. It’s a clear, very runny serum that you can apply to the face and neck. It absorbed into my skin instantly with no oily or sticky residue. The scent is pleasant, a very natural smell. Right off the bat, I agree with people saying that it instantly hydrates and moisturizes without making you feel oily. I’m actually really excited to continue using this sample size, especially since it contains hyaluronic acid! The full size is only around $15 at Ulta so if I really do see a difference with my skin, will have to purchase it!

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When I saw this, I appreciated how small this blending brush was since I do have very small lids and eyes. I didn’t try applying any shadows to my lid but I did run it across them just to see how soft it is. I can confirm, it’s a very soft brush that fits perfectly into the socket of my eye. We will have to how it works with actual shadows but so far it looks great. I can also see myself using this as a highlighter brush.

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Okay, very pumped for this one! It’s actually full-sized and usually retails for around $22 on the website so good deal. More pluses are that this liner is completely vegan, cruelty-free, and 93% natural with no parabens or phthalates. Impressive. I swatched this on my hand and it is very black and pigmented. It has a felt tip liner that is super easy to use-I have a lot of control over it. It also dries quickly and is indeed waterproof. I tried running some  water over my swatches and they didn’t budge. I did try actually rubbing it with water and it did smudge but I don’t think I let it dry long enough so not sure about that. So far, so good. I can’t wait to test this on my eyes!

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This one seems to be a Korean brand and claims to be a light, moisturizing cream that is great for oily skin and can be comfortably worn underneath makeup. Let me tell you, the smell is DIVINE. I’ve always loved the scent of Korean beauty products but this one is so fresh and clean. It definitely sinks into the skin nicely and dries quickly. There is so no residue so I can see this being a great daily moisturizer underneath makeup. I really like this product as well!

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I’ve heard some reviews about this foundation so pretty excited to see this in this month’s glam bag. I didn’t put this on my face but I could already tell that it’s simply not for me by swatching and blending it on my hand. It’s a very sheer, oil-based foundation that literally never dries down. If you have oily skin, I really doubt you will like this. If you have dry skin, it seems like a “your skin but better” type of foundation. It reminds me more of a tinted moisturizer rather than a foundation. I had the foundation on my hand for a long time and it will still slick. I could not imagine having this on my face for even a few hours…I will be gifting this to a friend who will hopefully enjoy it!

All in all, I liked 4 out of the 5 products this month so that’s awesome! I hope you enjoyed my post on this month’s Ipsy glam bag. If you are subscribed to Ipsy, do we share any favorites?

 

paige x

 

new stuff i’ve been trying

new stuff i’ve been trying

I got some new products I’ve been trying and wanted to do a lil blog post on them. Enjoy!

 

 Revlon ColorStay Eyebrow Pencil

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I ran out of my beloved Colourpop brow pencil and I needed something quick so I found this guy at Target and it looked really promising! Unfortunately, the formula is just not for me. It’s incredibly waxy and splotchy during application. The pigment is there but the wax somehow makes it less pigmented? Haha. Hard to explain. The brush on the other end does help with blending this out but it still looked so bad. It took me double the time to do my brows and they still didn’t look very nice. I’ve realized that I look for pigmentation and less waxiness in my brow pencils.

Tarte Blush in Paarty

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I got this sample size at Sephora and I am so in love with the shade and formula of this blush. I’m not much of a blush gal so I really like the shade of this particular one. It’s natural, subtle, and great for everyday wear. So far, I really like how buttery it is and how it lasts on my cheeks!

Mario Badescu Facial Spray

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So far, I like this! Do I feel like it makes a difference with how long my makeup lasts? Not really. Honestly, I just like how this makes my face feel and I also love the ingredients. My skin does feel hydrated and supple whenever I mist this. I actually prefer to spray this on my bare face rather than using it as a makeup setting spray. For $7 a pop, I think it’s worth it and will continue to use it.

Tarteist Lip Paint in Birthday Suit

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Another sample from Sephora and I actually really enjoy this! It’s a matte lip paint but doesn’t dry out the lips. Kind of reminds me of the NYX soft matte cremes. This shade in particular is a beautiful soft pinkish nude. I am not sure how long it wears as I have only worn this a few times and it was just for an hour or two. I will continue to use this and I have to check out the other colors in this range.

 I hope you had a nice little read.

 

paige x

 

july ’17 Ipsy bag

july ’17 Ipsy bag

yay I finally subscribed to the Ipsy bag! I got my July bag quite late but I still wanted to post a little somethin’ somethin’ on what I got.

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The star of the show HAS to be the Gudetama bag that all the sample products came in. I’ve always been a fan of Gudetama and absolutely adore this little egg. The bag is sturdy and a great size for makeup or toiletries. Most importantly, it’s just so darn cute! I will definitely be using this when I am travelling next month.

Beau Gachis Illuminator Brush

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The first item from the bag is an “illuminator brush” by the brand, Beau Gachis. I have never heard of it but my first impression of the brush is that it’s just a normal, synthetic, soft brush haha. It’s hard to review brushes right off the bat, I will have to play with this one and see how it applies and blends out my concealer.

TreStiQue Mini Crayon Concealer

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Super cute packaging. I am not a huge fan of this concealer-it’s definitely a light coverage concealer in my opinion. It is buildable but the formula is just not for me. It sat on my skin and didn’t really blend out. The shaded matched me perfectly though! I might give this another try…

Caudalie Vinosource Moisturizing Sorbet

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I tried applying this over my hands and face a few times actually. Not a big fan, to be honest. It is, indeed, a very light moisturizer which I appreciate but the texture was almost watery. Maybe a little too light for my taste. I can see how some people would enjoy this. It’s simply not for me. I might gift this to a friend!

Tarte Rainforest of the Sea Deep Dive Cleansing Gel

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This is the only one I have not tried yet. I was looking up reviews and this product did okay. I do like the fresh scent and the concept of a cleansing gel. I mostly stick to micellar waters, but will give this a go!

Ciate Gel-Kohl Pencil Liner

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I don’t use pencil liners very often anymore but I thought this one was pretty decent. It applies like butter and it does come with a smudging application on the other end. The downside is that it is not waterproof. My eyelids are naturally oily so this would not work for me. But I think it would be great for people who don’t greasy lids haha.

 

All in all, I thought the products were decent. Again, I am just in love with the Gudetama bag-it is obviously my favorite thing from Ipsy this month haha. But I do love trying new products and giving my take on them. Can’t wait for the next one!

 

paige, xx

 

 

 

august ’17 / goals

august ’17 / goals

July is well over and it’s time to set up some new goals for this month!

vegan diet

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yep I’m doing this again for the second time. A big influence for me was watching “What the Health” on Netflix. I highly suggest this documentary, vegan or not-it’s an eye-opening film that basically tells you everything you don’t want to hear about what we are eating. It was a significant reminder for me and definitely gave me the push to try the vegan diet again. The main reason why I was unsuccessful the first time was because I was actually gaining quite a bit of weight-I’ve definitely figured out why this time around and plan on taking the healthy vegan route this time!

hiking

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I invested in some nice hiking shoes and I am determined to make use of them this month! We are already planning on doing a few hikes for this month so I’m pretty excited. Since I despise exercising, I thought a great way for me to get some good cardio is by hiking: beautiful scenery and good company all in one. And by hiking, I mean legitimate hikes. I used to think hiking was just walking along a dirt trail but my friends and I have some intense hikes planned this month-wish me luck!

planning our birthday trip

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Every year, Sean and I plan a joint birthday trip and this  year we are FINALLY visiting Seattle, Washington. We will be going towards the end of September so this month will be dedicated to fully booking everything and planning the whole trip. If ya know me, I love to plan things (maybe a little too much) and can’t wait to share my trip with you guys!

a smoothie a day

This goes with my vegan diet goal as well but the best way for me to get greens into my body is through a smoothie or juice. Honestly, I just don’t like kale. Haha. I think it’s only edible when it’s cooked a certain way and at this point, I have not figured out how to make it myself enough to enjoy it. Adding greens to my fruit smoothies is really the only way I can eat them raw so a smoothie a day will ensure that I am getting those healthy bits into my body.

consistency

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For people who actually follow my blog and read my posts, I go through phases where I go silent for a few weeks and then come back. It’s something I am currently trying to work on and I find it difficult to balance my work, personal, and extracurricular life with blogging. I want to be consistent. This month is dedicated to my blog. I want to post at least twice a week-which is doable for me as I used to post 3-4 times a week for quite some time. I would appreciate any tips from fellow bloggers on how to keep up with timely posts. I sometimes get into a creative rut or I simply don’t make the time out of the day to take pictures, edit, or write.

trying new things

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I think this was in my last month’s goal post but it’s something that I think I will be working on for a looong time. I am a person of routine and familiarity. I don’t do well with spontaneous activities and tend to get anxious and panicky if things don’t go to plan. It sucks. But it’s something I want to gradually get better at. I am proud to say that last month, I did so many things out of my comfort zone: I took a kickboxing class, I hiked for 4+ hours in an insect-infested, rocky off-trail, and I managed to make new friends. I hope to continue this in August (my birthday month!).

Do you have any goals this month?

 

paige xx

 

 

july ’17 / favs

july ’17 / favs

Another month has flown by and I have another compilation of stuff that I have been loving this month. Hope you find something new or see something familiar!

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French Lavender Body Butter

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I have an obsession with lavender! I think ever since I tried Salt & Straw’s Lavender Honey ice cream, I have been associating the scent to how mouth-watering the flavor is. I got this lovely body butter from World Market a month ago and it’s the ONLY thing I have been slathering on my body. It’s a very thick and moisturizing body lotion that essentially just keeps your skin happy. I love using it after a good body scrub because it replenishes the skin immediately. Have to admit, the scent was what really sold me on this product-it’s just so heavenly! Will be repurchasing for as long as I am in this lavender phase haha.

Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara

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Definitely my holy grail mascara for the month! Instead of the usual eyeliner look that I go for, I have been relying on this guy to make my eyes pop for this summer so far. I absolutely love how this not only lengthens, but also gives volume to my little lashes. It’s a solid mascara that does the job and keeps my lashes perky throughout the whole day-especially in this SoCal heat.

Vans

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Theses babies have been locked to my feet so much this month that I have a freaking tan line right at my ankle ha. These are the “Old Skool” and is literally everywhere right now. I got mine from Broadway Shoes for around $60. I originally bought these for Coachella back in April but I didn’t start wearing them religiously until this month. They are solid, comfortable shoes that look good with any outfit-with shorts, skirts, leggings, jeans, even dresses. Some things just never go out of style.

Home-made Lavender Bar Soap

Another Lavender product-what a surprise. My mom actually made and gave me this and I think I am now converting from a body wash user, to a bar soap user. I somehow feel a lot cleaner when using this bar soap-the ingredients are very basic and simple whereas body washes mostly contain fillers and things I can’t pronounce lol. Bar soaps are also cheaper and they last longer for me.

 

It Cosmetics CC+ Cream

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I actually did a comprehensive review on this hyped-up product over here if you would like to peruse! Basically, it is the BEST foundation alternative for the summer. SPF 50, great coverage, buildable, easy-to-apply, and amazing packaging. Absolutely recommend this beauty to everyone-so worth the hype! I will be using this throughout the summer and so on.

Aaand that’s the round-up for this month-hope you found some new or old goodies here, friends.

xx, paige

 

stuff that didn’t work for me.

stuff that didn’t work for me.

hey! I have a small cluster of products that I have had for over a month now and still can’t seem to enjoy using them. Some of these, I have tried multiple times to see if maybe my opinion would change but unfortunately these just didn’t cut it. We all have different skin types and preferences but I thought it would be informative and interesting to share my not-so-pleased thoughts on these products.

1. Alba Botanica Hawaiian Oil Free Moisterizer

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This one came as a surprise as I have used Alba Botanica’s face washes and hair products in the past and have loved them all. Sadly, this moisturizer breaks me out. At first, I thought I was just hormonal because I was using it around my period. But then I tried reusing it on a normal day and like clockwork, I sprouted angry pimples across my face. But since I was such an avid Alba Botanica consumer, I tried using it for the THIRD time just to make sure and again, I broke out. Besides the pimple-breakouts, I thought of it as a solid day or night moisturizer- it’s very light, dries quickly, and leaves your skin hydrated and fresh.

2. NYX Liquid Suede

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Man I really wanted to like this product since I absolutely adoree almost all of NYX lip products. I don’t know if it was just me but this did not give me a suede finish. It was heavy and kind of sticky on my lips? DEF not suede haha. I couldn’t even purse my lips together without the product sticking to each other. I was disappointed because I was very excited when I saw this Target but I guess it was just not meant to be.

3. Colourpop Cosmetics Blush

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Another surprising one for me…I LOVE almost all of Colourpop’s products: their lip products, highlighters, and eyebrow pencils are bomb but their blushes are ehhhh. Yes, they are cheap at $8 a pop but I personally like my Wet n’ Wild Color Icon blushes much more and they are around $4-$5. My Colourpop blush dried down completely in a month and I was very meticulous with closing the pot tightly after the few uses I got out of it. Other than the drying out part, I thought the blush itself was okay. Not something I would repurchase as there are cheaper, better alternatives at the drugstore that won’t dry out.

4. NYX Eye Primer Pot

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I was skeptical with this one from the beginning and I also have tried this product out a handful of times to give it a fair shot. It just doesn’t work for my eyelids. I prefer my Urban Decay Primer Potion of the Too Faced Shadow Insurance. I felt like it sat on my lids but didn’t really do anything-I didn’t see a difference in the wear of my eyeshadows and it definitely did not enhance any colors. Usually when I use the UD Primer Potion, my eyeliner goes on smoothly and extremely pigmented than usual. But the NYX primer didn’t do anything.

5. Burt’s Bees Brightening Daily Facial Cleanser

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Another company that I usually am pleased with but this face wash literally does nothing for me. I feel like it just sits on top of my skin and I don’t feel my face getting any cleaner..Haha. I thought it was because it was a non-foaming face wash but I have tried Alba Botanica’s and Yes to Carrots non-foaming face washes and they are splendid! I don’t hate this product since it did not break me out or anything but for around $9-$10, it’s not worth it for my skin. I also did not see any brightening effects (I  managed to used the whole bottle too!) nor did it do a good job of removing my makeup.

Has anyone used any of these products but did enjoy them? I am curious to see what other people think, especially with the Colourpop blushes. Hope this post was informative/interesting!

 

paige xx